Be it as it may I can willingly and honestly admit I’ve been in a running rut. It’s not that I do not miss running or racing because I miss it so much. It’s that I feel like I’m stuck because I’ve allowed myself to get to this point of what is best termed: OUT OF SHAPE. Instead of turning the negative into positives lately I’ve been in a negative downhill battle with running and I never thought I’d also conclude this, but I’ve lost a bit of confidence in the sport. As if I couldn’t be even more hard on myself I’ve set expectations to reach specific goals and from the outside looking in I’m a little afraid of myself and all the pressure that comes with goal setting.
About three months ago I also went through a break up with my boyfriend of almost four years which was difficult. In years past, similar life changing events like the pressure of a new job, new city, or even a break up etc. would have pushed me to reach my goals even more. I have a funny way of turning those emotions into fuel to burn on runs and running helps me think through things thus providing a healthy outlet for such life changing events. This time was different and instead of running to move forward I have been busy traveling, decorating my new apartment, and spending time with family and friends. I never thought after going through that kind of a break up would push me to other fun outlets besides running but I guess life has a funny way of working out.
I’ve been happy in all aspects of life since moving from Baltimore, Md back to Arlington, Va except I feel like my desire to run has fallen by the wayside. To get back on track I recently I reached out to my coach for some assistance because I need structure, a plan, and extra attention to get me to the starting line of the Marine Corps Marathon this year. I know myself and I personally I need a coach to provide a marathon training schedule to help me progressively get back into running shape so I do not develop injuries. I also know that I should modify my goals this year and relieve a little pressure that may be weighing me down mentally. It’s healthy to have a list of goals, but I’ve let that list get the best of me lately. I essentially need to focus on what is important and that is getting back in shape and letting my heart carry me out for a run not the voices in my head.
I might just define the past few months as pushing the reset button on running and starting over. I have approximately 15 weeks until the Marine Corps Marathon and I’m hoping to get myself back on track and back in shape. I’ll likely goal set 7 weeks out (September) from race date (October 26) based on where my fitness level is at that point. I expect to continue to struggle just like years past with balancing marathon training and making appropriate social decision over the course of training, but I’m hoping to have a better grasp on it. I’m only human and its time I have a little fun with the sport, find my passion for it again, and share with you my uphill and downhill battles.
Wish me luck!
This is how I’m going to get out of my rut. How do you get out of a running rut?